trust n o o n e

This is something I have to do by now. Have you ever had someone who you thought would never betray you, betray you? I'm seriously not happy with anything right now. Everything seems to be fucking up, and it all runs back to me. What am I suppose to do? Keep my mouth shut for the rest of my life? Talk to people I "trust"? Welp, I can't do that. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm lost. No joke. I'm not even trying to be dramatic, but everythings just sooo wrong. I'm losing my family, and I don't even trust them. I need to be on my own. I need to get the fuck away. Schools not looking too great, although I am trying my best. Friends... what friends? Seriously.

I'm crying like someone just died.
The End.

kick back & relax ?

Seems like I have no time to just "kick back & relax". & I actually think it'd be nice if everyone could do that! So, I'm back at school & piled up with homework. KILLER can i say ?! I'm actually writing this blog instead of doing my math homework, but oh well ! Lets see, I'll cover 2 days worth of my randomness.

Yesterday was super boring. School was boring. Then came home, and the funniest thing happened. I was about to put my laundry in, and Alex's laundry was in, so we went to get it. It was basically all soaped up. We waited hella long for that shit to be done, and when we opened the door, white bubble came running out of the washer ! oh no, so we had to clean it all up & trust me, it was the most crazy thing. & I couldn't tell my dad because he would have been pissed off...to the max. Uh huh! But it all worked out in the end, except just a whole big pile of bubbles left outside the door.

Today I didn't go to first period because that teacher keeps pissing me off, and its just building up, inside my head.. of how much he annoys me. Seriously, he needs to learn how to shut the fuck up. So I went to my IWE class, and stayed in there... yeah Mr.Correa is super chill. Hahaha. School was boring. Nothing interesting happened. Now I'm home, and I'll probably do some homework, and then talk to my love, and sleep. This is my daily routine. It sucks. I need something new in life.

My parents are still crazy. I don't know what to do with them. I hate being inbetween stupid situations, because I can't take sides. But whatever. They need to grow up. " I will not be like them when I grow up ." That, I tell myself. I have goals, and I will accomplish them. Until my next blog, later !

" each day gets better "

I have too much I want to write about, so here we go again .

Right at this second .. .I got an IM from someone who has been bothering the fuck outta me. Can some boys just ... hop off my "dick" ? Okay, I don't have a dick. But please.. some people need to learn how to hop off a girls invisible dick. I hate when you're cool with someone, and then they become to get a little TOO much. & then you try to ignore them. Ah, I feel bad sometimes. But hey, whatever.

What would life be like without music ?

Shit , I don't even know. I live by quotes from songs. No joke, music keeps me sane. But, I'm pretty sure it keeps many, many, MANY people sane .. if not everyone. Music seriously puts me in "awe". I listen to music every second of my life. Unless I'm at school, or out doing something. I'm currently loving John Legend. He's a beast. Real talk, his music is real. You know how some singers become artists just because they can "sing", even though some can't even sing..? but whatever. I hate that. I'm sorrry. Real artists like John Legend puts me in awe, I'll say. It's truly inspirational. & I love my boy. I'm his number one fan. He currently recorded a song for me, and it's the cutest thing ever. I listen to it everyday. SHH, it's a secret.

I'm keeping this thing like my private journal.
iloveyourider.

let my mind s p e a k .

So, I guess this will give me something to do when I'm really bored eh? Or maybe, I'll just write a whole buncha SHIZZNITS on here. Who knows, I don't. I don't even know what I'm trying to say, or my point exactly in writing this. Hahaha. So here goes a bunch of more random thoughts.

I'm sick right now. I've been sick. I can't seem to get rid of this major headache that I've been having forever. I've been missing school a lot, and it makes me feel like a failure. I'm not a failure though !!

Enough about school. I feel like I don't have any "real" friends, except maybe 3. I don't know, that was a random number. But it's pretty accurate, I would say. . . maybe, I should just try to accept people, because we're all human. Whether we talk shit, or we don't. I don't have to be everyone's "friend" right? Ha, right. Cause I'm SOOOO not !

I've been wanting to get away. Somewhere where it'll take my mind off things... lets say, reality. I want to go somewhere, where when I come back and HAVE to deal with "reality", I could think about my lovely time away.. and it'll make me happy ;) if you know what I mean. Okay, I'll just say it. I want to see this nigga bitch. The end.

P.S. I've been attempting to learn how to play guitar. I want to be on youtube, singing songs with my guitar. HAHA. Watch, I'll do it one day !

so that was random. first blog. don't shit on me.